bliss

another moment of bliss without money love comfort future honor and activity whatever is my desire or looking forward to - comfort happiness and superior living!

I got up with one bliss - Cole. We played for hours as he wished. he wishes without words. afternoon I had some minutes with Cecilia. I was longing to see her so long.

I spent time in laziness and sleep. Occasionally talking to recruiters. essentially negative - i am not the material they are looking for. there is a mismatch.

then I went for my cycling tour of neighborhood. during this time i am far more clear sighted. I am in bliss now. all my absence are perfect reason for my bliss. i have no assignment is bliss. i have real disease is my reason for bliss. none thinks worthwhile to spend time with me is my reason for bliss.  my inactivity is greater bliss ....

I am happiest at this real moment without reason ...

I have at last reached the empty space without gravity and i cannot fall nor can i climb down or up the ladder of more enjoyment !!!

there is no ladder elevator or stairs rooftop residence of mine is empty ~ my heart sank with apprehension - for the first time i enjoyed my cowardishness my shame my filthy mind body habits dreams greed lust perversions and my hopeless ruthless future of the same and more without end ...

I love all ~

i am in bliss of paradise real and now

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