My commitment

I am committed to prevent nothing. All illusion is illusion and goes observed without me blinking.
I am center of universe and empty space. If any of my illusion is capable of evoking any kind of emotion to engage with me, i do not prevent.
It is my commitment to what I have done once and shall not repeat.
I am already eliminated. I am not left with any option.
An attack or praise are exactly same they do not exist anymore.
Last night I was depressed that there is none but me. I can no longer play the game of many and keep the game go on. I can no longer the author any play and write play script on my imagination. I have no convicion left. I was depressed that I have no enjoyment left.
What can I be in empty space with not even a reader my words? I am unable to read a word or watch a film. I cannot improve myself. I am committed not to prevent my elimination. I can never feel victorious again. Whom do I tell about my victory? I am my mother. I am my brother. I am my sister. I am my father. They do not exist and they never existed. I know the truth but there is no joy. There is nothing to give since there is none to take. Nor there is future of one miracle of another like or unlike me. My empty space shall remain forever empty with none to show my accomplishments - my knowledge.
There is something left to be done. I have to accept my situation. I cannot go in pursuit of any to strike relationship and sparks of love and excitement. I can write a playscript anymore. False everyone and everything is.
all is illusion - my deeds my thoughts my perceptions ~ there is none and nothing

what can i do?

i have preference. I love boredom to excitement. i love procrastination to action. i love bad to good. i love present to any other time. i love insult to praise. i love rejection to acceptance. i love defeat to win.

I love my total change of attitude. i love negative to positive.  love talking to listening. I love harming to gifting........

I cannot share platform or base. If i am one then all is nothing. if any is one i am nothing.

i can be part of all. but then it gets destroyed no matter what is our strategy. 10 blind are self supporting; holding each other they are talking excessive loudly so that all who have eyes and ears stay away from their path. they are very happy. they have security, company and the road for themselves. if one falls into a ditch not all of them falling and make a change of direction. if chance of disaster striking is 0.1 for an individual now is 0.1 ^ 10. unfortunately it remains same. one can never hide. the leg on that boat would slip away if one thinks that is secured. all imagination of security is never true not eve beyond that moment. disaster lightning  strike aimed at the so called security. probability 1. inevitable.

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