Impartial

Creator too has both heart and head. Though it's abundance he distributes impartially, he feigns equality and sends secret messages in two different ways between warring brothers. Bhishma's question is deep, he asks krishna, how come dangers for pandavas were never ending.

Krishna has to be beside panda as always! That is his preferential treatment. If I wish to be aligned to creator and look for residency under his sky khabe to share equally all his wealth according to his biases. I am not allowed to complain. I have leave out abandon my preferences outside his sky - i prefer to call my umbrella.

Since I have already my choice. I may pray my love to be present beside but cannot complain if that be empty.

I must be perfect in my head. What is my wish? An ever present perfect shelter with abundant love and care or more outside my residence.

What is home?

This morning's dream:
I am struggling hard to prevent loss of Joya's!
My umbrella is empty space all my sathis - companions must make their individual choice where they belong. I must make my choice of gold and companion or stay outside home with creator at my heart but head bare in scorching heat diseases thieves storms or flood. I am having my air-conditioned nightmares.

I must follow my heart and not head.

If i am desirous of security love and joy i must not be speaking english or bengali and must be idiot of learning any human pleasures.

Hanuman had joy of union at heart - ram sita - and no head of thinking that they are separate. Ram had to build bridge to cross the ocean to reach sita. While Hanuman could do that anytime leaping one branch of tree to another seeking no glory in the human world.

My salute to Valmiki for writing Ramayana for me alone.

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